Last year it became very apparent that I wouldn’t have a lot of free time to create cinematic projects on my own, and I want to keep you all connected to what I’m doing here, so I had to find a way to combine the two. Life Approximate is my first attempt. So while it’s describing what my experience has been like up to now, it’s more thematic, and more dramatically portrayed than my usual talking head vlog. It’s similar to a video blogging concept called Letters to July by Emily Diana Ruth.
This short film is intended to convey what my life was like on a day to day coming to the end of last year. It was productive, but very exhausting. And with all that work, I always felt like I was just short of the life I was looking for. Always waiting in the wings for the next opportunity. I often feel like I live in the margins, watching other people who have figured out their path living their life, and waiting for my turn.
For the cinematic aspects of this film, I only shot myself through shadows, silhouettes and reflections to convey that I am not quite where I want to be, but often feel just outside of it. I don’t feel like I’m living fully “me,” so I never quite shot myself head on. The only time I’m very clearly seen is in the quick clip of me from the Buzzfeed video. I let some shots of my day to day linger a little uncomfortably long to help provoke a sense of discomfort. The clips of my work and other events come and go very quickly to convey how rare and fleeting they can be.
The most difficult shot to get was the lights from the local nightlife rolling up my windshield. My friends Dreux and Nikita rolled around town with me while I figured out where to tape. Then Dreux drove up and down Santa Monica Blvd in West Hollywood while I hung my camera out the window on my shoulder rig. Nikita captured it on snapchat lol. Oh and I used an app on my iPad to see what my camera was shooting out the window.
To get the shots inside the car while I’m driving, I put my camera on a tripod and strapped it in place with bungee cords.
I really enjoyed taking this approach to sharing my journey with you all. It really challenged me to make the most of my resources, and practice making the kind of imaging decisions a cinematographer has to make, from how to use light and shadow, to settings on my camera.
For those that are into the behind the scenes stuff, I hope this little post was satisfying. If there’s more I can share, please email me or hit me on social media and let me know.