For the readers: This was a very different type of video blog than usual. I’m taking a more cinematic and thematic approach to chronicling my journey, in order to constantly exercise my creative muscles and make the visuals for these entries more interesting. Consequently, some of what I’m saying may seem unclear without watching the video. It’s only two minutes, so maybe watch it? lol. Thanks.

Read Behind The Scenes: Life Approximate for the story behind this short film.

This update is way past overdue, but it’s been really hard to find the energy to work on this.

Every time I tell myself I’m going to do this update, the other side of my mind quietly finds something else to do. When I can’t think of something else to do, I just sit there. The fact is, when I’m not running around trying to make this life work, the last thing I want to do is sit and think about it.

I feel like this city is making me earn every minute that I spend here. While most of the city is still sleeping, I’m already in my car waiting to take them to work. I either go to Apple in the afternoon or deliver dinners during rush hour. On the weekends, I wake up at midnight to head out and help people get home safely.

But every now and then, I get a call, to do something fun, something meaningful… something I’ve been waiting for. And sometimes I get paid for it.

I found a church community that reminds me of home, but bears the diversity of my surroundings..

My doctor says I have to take better care of myself. I have to eat better. I have to sleep better. I have to exercise. I want to do all those things, but where would I find the time? I miss having time to just live. To just breathe. I miss having energy for life. For friends. All of that could be around the corner but the struggle is to believe that until it happens. I feel like the next test for me is to take a real day off… something I’ve never been good at.

2016 has to be about prioritizing self care over my ambitions. I also want to create more and explore LA for myself. It’s starting to sink in now that I have to actually live here. I can’t act like I just work here.

Read Behind The Scenes: Life Approximate for the story behind this short film.